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02 November 2005 @ 10:04 pm
Mixed emotions?....yes, i would say so.  
what has happened to my so called "group of friends"?? I don't understand how somthing so great and so..well great could turn upside down. Everything was fucking PERFECT for so long and it is begining to fall apart. I am torn between two people i love DEARLY and have to listen to them talk shit about eachother all the time. Everyone is mad at someone and i don't understand. The sad part is I don't believe any one of us really started it...i really feel like the only person I can really trust is josh and shelah (and of course some innocent bistandards). I think that is only because they are the most honest people i know. I don't like having to sceduel (spelling? eh..) plans around people just to keep the peace...

Jason, Amy, Josh, Shelah, Jen, Ash, Andy R, Sara, Andy S, Lauren, and kenny, I love you guys! my friends are my family and you are all that matter to me. Really you guys are the only people I talk to. I hope I didnt forget anyone but If i did you know who you are and i love you too.

Lates,
Jessica Brianne Wytiasa Bellew (try putting all that on a job app. lol)
 
 
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somekindahatesome1kind3hate8 on November 7th, 2005 12:46 am (UTC)
hey jessi
lol i see were your coming from infact i might be seeing it alot better than any one else. hey, at least you get outta the house, and talk to people. you still do stuff with them. just keep working on your problems and try to get it all worked out before it turns into something it doesnt have to be. i know about everything thats gone on, and all i can say is that everyone has a totally twisted version of the truth. everyone needs to just sit down and talk about it, and if theres some people not willing to do so, then fuck them, obviously they dont care enough to try and work out their problems, so FUCK them!! there are some stubborn people out there, and when its someone you know, either you gotta walk up to them, or walk away from them. unfortunatly thats how things go. i havent talked to anyone lately. to just tell everyone right now, you more than likely wont be seeing me in school coming soon. im going to be home bound, if not then im going to some "special school" were they make a programs just for me to get me some help...the help that i need.